In the beginning I was`nt this big guy you see now. I was small and skinny just like a lot of other guys out here. As a kid I was beat up on, bullied, and even made fun of. Every girl that I seemed to like would just shut me down, and my heart was crushed time and time again. I remember dudes would just not like me for no apparent reason at all, and find an excuse to pick a fight with me. At such a young age I was even encountering racism. For some reason I was always a target some how.
I was dealing with deep depression, and still do. This over time started to make my heart become cold, I started to learn how to disconnect my feelings with reality with out realizing it. I started mingling with the wrong people, which of course became a domino effect in to other things. The alcohol and drugs came in to play..and I started running the streets hard. I was getting in to all types of trouble. I put my parents through hell!
What helped me turn my life around was my parents, they never gave up on me as hard as it was for them. The turning point for me was the last time I was in trouble, I looked back at my parents and saw the look in my mothers eyes...the hurt and pain..that killed me! So from then on I knew I had to get my act together. God knows how much I wish I could take it all back, I still break down and cry just thinking about what I put them through. It`s probably some of the demons I deal with inside that haunt me.
What turned me out to to the Iron Game was when my girlfriend at the time cheated on me, and left me for someone else. That devastated, and crushed me into a million pieces. I had built up so much anger, and hate through the years I knew I needed an outlet like real quick before I did something stupid! So I joined this whole in a wall gym in Jamaica, Queens and it was history from there. Now I`m glad that incident happened..It was like it was meant to be, there was no other feeling like that for me. When I gripped that weight I knew the Iron game was my calling. I took all my frustrations, and anger out on the Iron. It was therapy for me, and still is. It`s the only thing that no one can take from me..It`s my world!
It`s been about 14-15 years that I`ve been pretty serious..I even remember messing with my brothers weights at a pretty young age(12). I still deal with a lot of issues internally that carried over from the years, and if you know me I have no type of poker face..lol That`s why I zone out and bang out the weights, keeps me level headed. So this did`nt happen over night..it took a lot time, hard work and dedication to build this tank :)
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Coach Rob
Krank Systems llc
Co Owner/Founder
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